o'dark thirty

I am so glad that I don't have to know it all, solve it all and fix it all! What a mess we'd all be in. It's after 10pm and I was in that fight of "how can I sleep when I still have all these problems to solve mode". That's a useless fight for me. I always know which side of the fight will loose, so with age comes experience, so finally I've gotten old enough (?) to realize I might as well get up and leave the room we're pulling a late shift tonight! Might as well perk some coffee when I'm in this mode!
But why? As a sanguine I'm all about having fun, all attention on me, let the party begin. Oh, do I so easily forget that I'm a choloric-sanguine so I'm also primarily a control freak! I get so agravated at Mr. Phlegmatic Taylor when we are arguing (oops...did I admit we argue?) at o'dark hundred that left to his own self he can start snoring in the middle and as my elbow is jamming into that hallow place in his rib cage reminding him how grateful he is that I was designed from that missing rib (ha ha he he) I will snort out "how can you sleep at such a time as this?" I guess I get so agravated in part because I'm envious, wish I could just decide, well, here is something that I can't control, and I'm not having any fun so I'll just go to sleep and let everyone else solve the problem!
Yes, I'm choloric-sanguine but foremost I'm a daughter of the only King that knows everything, owns everything (that I haven't stolen and put a do not disturb sign on), can solve everything, and by the way have I mentioned He can be everywhere at once? I'm His daughter and He cares for me.
Sometimes it's the simple songs that I remember from 'the good ole days' that mean the most. Songs like, "I will cast all my cares upon Him, I lay all of my burdens down at His feet, and any time that I don't know what to do, I will cast all my cares upon You!" "At the cross at the cross where I first saw the light and the burdens of my heart rolled away..." "All to Jesus I surrender all to Him I freely give..."
It's so easy to sing those songs but takes so much effort, diligence and humility to act upon those words!

Puberty Round 2

Hello, Me here-yes, that is me hiding behind Mt. Everest on the left cheek and Humphry's Peek on the chin.

So with my front tooth being pulled to get braces installed in a month and 5 new huge pimples over the last few weeks, the joke of testimony service yesterday is that Karen is going through puberty. HA HA.

Actually, Karen is going through a lot right now and I feel very lonely. PS 139 was so comforting yesterday....there is no where to escape God and I know He will never leave me nor forsake me!

Do you really know how many foods don't have glutten, wheat, wheat starch, modified starch (wheat they just don't want to admit it!)? Lets just say how many foods don't! Ok, so Chester Cheeto saved my day when I'm depressed and wanted to munch, he makes his chips from corn thank God! Cheese and chocolate that is all I need today! Wow, am I really PMSing?

How come everybody else's blogs are so peppy? Are they not experiencing chronic pain, chronic fatigue, a pulled tooth, junk food depravity? And who ever thought I should eliminate soda right before all this food goes? Why have I only lost 6 lbs? How do I scream on a blog?

Bitter Sweet Joy

Allyssa, so happy in her Daddy's lap, wearing his hat knows all attention is on her...well is it?

Jordan, so happy to be near his mom doesn't care whether it's on her lap or across the desk from her....or does he?

I am done fighting. At least fighting for what I want! I trully want God's best! My children and I need each other and July 2nd I gave my 60 day notice of resignation to First Choice Pregnancy Center, I will be a full time stay at home mom on September 16, 2008!

Jordan will begin Kindergarten in homeschool with a full-time mom teaching him on September 29th, 2008. I have been teaching pre-school half-heartedly an hour here two hours there, no more we will simultaneously complete pre-school and begin Kindergarten full-time. God has called, my husband has spoken, I will obey! It is the desire of my heart for our children to be homeschooled and as hard as I try time won't slow down for this busy director, so this busy director passes that hat!

I will remain on the Board of Directors at the center and look forward to continuing as a public speaker for them, and trainer but all that will have to fit around my family, not my family around everything else.

This has been a very difficult decision and I'm still very passionate about the ministry of First Choice but my ministry as a mom has got to come first!

I will never regret choosing to stay home with my kids, I just pray that my kids will never regret me being home! Yikes!

Happy Birthday Allyssa

"Happy Birthday too you, Happy Birthday too you." "Allyssa is the girl, that the Lord has made" these were songs as tradition prevails that were a part of our special family evening. Allyssa saw my icecream on my plate and has paused on her frosting for a moment in order to get some Java Chip. She of course started eating her chocolate cake with whipped cream frosting as any princess would, one poke & place delicately in the mouth at a time until she "accidentally" wiped it on her nose and I didn't get mad but instead giggled and said "dive in baby! That's the way!" Then she realized all princess garb aside, mom's blessing this dive I'm going in 2 fisted! Hopefully you can see the hairdoo she has given to herself also.

Time goes so quickly

"How did she get to be so lovely? How did she grow to be....Sunrise, Sunset, quickly go the years. One season following another...." If you have watched any of Fiddler on the Roof as many times as I have watched parts (not the entire movie, ever) then you will recognize these words. As a mom of a BABY girl I can fully understand what it must feel like to wake up and kiss your children goodbye to their life as I can not believe...Princess Allyssa is one year old!

With all that is going on in life I couldn't bear the stress of a "birthday party" so we had a quiet dinner at home with cake and ice cream-you'll enjoy the next post:-)