Lost Love Hold Loosely

Today was a very sad day in our house. I'd already received the heartbreaking call when Jordan came running, sleepy-wide-eyed boy excited...."Mama, don't forget today is the day that Papa said we can pick up B....." I began sobbing and shook my head no as I watched my 5 year old looking forward to receiving his knew friend Buddy into our home. Love found and lost all in less than 24 hours.
On my way to Walmart to buy the dog food, colar, auto-water bowl and chew toy, I had this sinking feeling that of course I ignored...just pick up the dog before you shop. How crazy is that? Well, when I received the call; "Hello, you just called about Buddy, we've decided to keep him. My wife has fallen in love with him." I spent the next mile driving home angry. I wanted to yell, but what about me? What about my mom? My children we all love Buddy!
Hold on to things of this world loosely. They can be as vapor.
At least it served as a wake up call to Brent that we are serious when we say it is time to get a dog! We now have his blessings and our priorities listed. We're on the search.

Now seeking one child loving, attention starved dog! Prefer young female (18-mo's to 3 yrs ideal). Golden Retriever, Lab, German Shepard breeds. Excellent blessing from God would be a service dog flunky - but we're open to any way to find the 'right' dog for us.

Slow down....School zone

My pop said to me Sunday, "Karen, I see you out driving around town more now then I did when you were working full-time. Are you sure you are a 'stay at home' mom/'home'school teacher?"
Yes, but amazingly enough life doesn't seem to slow down automatically when we trade out hats. All we did is change our appearance. But is that what I set out to do?
Don't I really want a slower pace life and time to enjoy my kids while they are this age and with me (though Jordan 5, asked if when he gets married couldn't he and his wife just live with us...."or will Oma's house have enough room for us?" )Yikes!----I'm still considering it a blessing to be close enough to my mom in relationship that we can live with her while it's God's timing and remain content and happy.
I am starting this next level of transition by proclaiming that I will not feel guilty for slowing the pace a bit and taking things a little slower.

Time Flies

How does the time go by so fast and where does it go?
Jordan has this special way of identifying the time frame of an activity by saying "not today, not the next today, not the next today..." five minutes into the 'next today's' and you are spinning wondering is the event ever going to get here? Yet, reality tells me that he is going to be driving an actual vehicle (not just me crazy) in the equivalence of 5 seconds.
I can't believe two entire weeks have gone by with a post. The first official week of homeschool was awesome! Jordan and I were invited to attend kindergarten for a day where Brent works; I came home with wonderful ideas and Jordan came home knowing that school is not a game that Mom and Dad made up that participation is a voting matter! (Does any other Mom out there get tired of hearing whether or not your child really wants to do something?---My poor Mom I remember too vividly telling her when I didn't want to do something. I am sure my tone was much friendlier than Jordy's and I looked cuter saying it! LOL)
Of course, time is flying right now and somehow I've been on the computer too long. My family is calling and I have to jump and run. More later!

First Week at Home!
I'm loving this. I still have this pit in my stomache-that feeling like I've done something wrong and I'm going to get in big trouble and when I examine myself "I forgot to go to work all week!" "Oh no you didn't self, you don't have employment any longer!" YEAH!
Yes, each day I've had overwhelmed moments with the children. It is so worth it though!
Brent and I have been able to spend some quality time together and are learning each other more and more. (He actually said, "I'm available for some face to face time if you need it"-last night when he came home from work. We learned in our marriage conference that women need face to face communication. Look at me and listen-don't fix, don't distract, just listen.
Monday is first official day of Homeschool. I'm not ready but will be - hopefully procrastination is one of the qualities that can be corrected while at home:-)

39??? 19 All over again!?

How on earth can I mind turning 39 years old this year when I look 91? OOOPS! That is 19! I may move like I'm 91 but with braces on my teeth and zits all over who could guess a day over 19?
Let the fun begin before the pain sets in! Ps. I need ideas for soft food:-)

Psalm 113:9

"He maketh the barren woman to keep house, and to be a joyful mother of children, Praise ye the Lord."

We can read the scriptures over and over and seem to find something new, like we have never seen it there before. Then there are times that we have read the same scripture twenty times and the twenty first time it will mean something new to us. I love God's word!

Thank you Lord for calling this once barren woman to stay home and keep house and be a joyful mother of children!

o'dark thirty

I am so glad that I don't have to know it all, solve it all and fix it all! What a mess we'd all be in. It's after 10pm and I was in that fight of "how can I sleep when I still have all these problems to solve mode". That's a useless fight for me. I always know which side of the fight will loose, so with age comes experience, so finally I've gotten old enough (?) to realize I might as well get up and leave the room we're pulling a late shift tonight! Might as well perk some coffee when I'm in this mode!
But why? As a sanguine I'm all about having fun, all attention on me, let the party begin. Oh, do I so easily forget that I'm a choloric-sanguine so I'm also primarily a control freak! I get so agravated at Mr. Phlegmatic Taylor when we are arguing (oops...did I admit we argue?) at o'dark hundred that left to his own self he can start snoring in the middle and as my elbow is jamming into that hallow place in his rib cage reminding him how grateful he is that I was designed from that missing rib (ha ha he he) I will snort out "how can you sleep at such a time as this?" I guess I get so agravated in part because I'm envious, wish I could just decide, well, here is something that I can't control, and I'm not having any fun so I'll just go to sleep and let everyone else solve the problem!
Yes, I'm choloric-sanguine but foremost I'm a daughter of the only King that knows everything, owns everything (that I haven't stolen and put a do not disturb sign on), can solve everything, and by the way have I mentioned He can be everywhere at once? I'm His daughter and He cares for me.
Sometimes it's the simple songs that I remember from 'the good ole days' that mean the most. Songs like, "I will cast all my cares upon Him, I lay all of my burdens down at His feet, and any time that I don't know what to do, I will cast all my cares upon You!" "At the cross at the cross where I first saw the light and the burdens of my heart rolled away..." "All to Jesus I surrender all to Him I freely give..."
It's so easy to sing those songs but takes so much effort, diligence and humility to act upon those words!